Tears for Fears

"Mad World"

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

Back to starting point

I think I am back at the starting point again.

Something BEAUTIFUL

If you put your arms around me,
Could it change the way I feel?
I guess I let myself believe
That the outside might just bleed its way in
Maybe stir the sleeping past
Lying under glass
Waiting for the kiss
That breaks this awful spell
Pull me out... of this lonely cell

Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal
Into something beautiful

What I get from my reflection
Isn't what I thought I'd see.
so, give me reason to believe
You'd never keep me incomplete
Will you untie this loss of mine?
It easily defines me,
Do you see it on my face?
And that all I can think about is how long
I've been waiting to feel you move me.

Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful

And I'm still fighting for the word
To break these chains
And I still pray when I look in your eyes
You'd stare right back down
Into something beautiful

So close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful
Into something beautiful

Crash and burn

Is it hard to let go of something that excites u ? I am envious and happy and I long to be in your shoes. I think I have loved and died, hoped and cried. In the long run, I am only thankful to have passed by your life. For now, I am looking forward and not looking back anymore. Itself is a kind of pleasure.

Squaring off 2009 to 2010

Right on. A new year has begun. Something unusual has begun to stir in me, I feel myself more in love with my church. It has been some years as a person in Brighton but it is only of late that I consider it a very integral part of my life. Have my perspectives changed? Maybe. I think it makes sense, all of it, the history of Brighton, the life of it and the people in it. We are driven by eternity, or at least, really, the love for God.

As I take stock of 2009, a wheel of change has overtaken me. Big, small, mediocre. And recently, my past seems to be narrated to me once again. It is like a test of Satan to question me again if I have really done that mega clearance of my past.I did throw my old shoes away... It is STRANGE.

I find myself containing lesser feelings these days. Some feelings have become diluted and sadly, some relationships turned thinner. IS this what people call ‘maturity’? But I am not all mechanical.

I am not about to write some ‘mend my old ways’ resolutions here. But I want to say that the year must be framed in this manner:

“I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace.” Acts 20:24

I feel some raging emotions in me. But they rage like silent waves. They say, fear will immobilize you and lethargy will literally kill you.
So, I will erase them now.

I hope I can be invited to a nice welcome sight when I return to work next week.
Hello 2010, will you teach me more than I can ever ask for?
I pray.

1st Weekend of 2010. I am bashed!