Being.

I only know one way of living. Today I am seeing that this is nothing but horrifying. This existence, is but a foil to a greater being within. Even the best falls down. It happens way too unconditionally. How very twisted.

If my heart was a garden, you came and plucked the flowers. You have seen my many guises, you do not know me still.

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why, I have forgotten, and what arms have lain Under my head till morning; but the rain Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh Upon the glass and listen for reply, And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain For unremembered lads that not again Will turn to me at midnight with a cry. Thus in winter stands the lonely tree, Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one, Yet knows its boughs more silent than before: I cannot say what loves have come and gone, I only know that summer sang in me A little while, that in me sings no more. by Edna St. Vincent Millay