Monday, October 31, 2005

in all these things, I give it all to you Lord

I will always pack up my room, throw away things that are undeserving, documents hanging on the desktop after every unpack a new beginning.. and that was what I did on Saturday.. but , somehow, maybe is the clothes that I did not attempt to pack up yet, this time, something, is left untouched, and I have come to realize that it is the heart that is rather unsettled at this point of time…………….

I am missing somebody, someone or something, and I know I have not come to break my habit, I have not yet rested so far…

Oh god, let my tomorrow be your tomorrow.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

For God so loved the world..


I have never spent so much time on a piece of writing before. The fact that it is treacherously dominating my life these days is causing much unrest in the soul. And the wanting to do this essay well, stems from the intermittent palpitations of pride in me and I need to cast it away urgently. I will never to achieve anything if I am not willing to give up the ownership of this writing to God. U know, I have been in a mode of silent depression lately. I am almost all teary whenever I switch on the computer and the frequent aches in the physical body add to the fatigue in the mind that causes amnesia in the spirit. The circumference of the pit-holes in the heart seems to have widened much, even delving deeper into its depths. To it, is the grief in me upon Miki’s death that came all too sudden like a slap of cold realization. I don’t want reality to be shoved down the throat this way. But I know for sure, she has just gone home earlier than us all with the Lord.

Life is truly, about speaking the right things to oneself. And that for me, reflects God’s words as a fixed guidepost, as the centrality of my life. I lean on His abundant love, needing his ever soft and gentle reminders daily to grow in His Spirit.

No matter how stormy circumstances may be, God will steer our vessel in the channel he wants us to head. The teachings of the Scripture will enrich our impoverished lives. He is unfailing, very good to those who trust in him, and often surprises them with unlooked-for blessings. Little do we know what may happen to us to-morrow, but this sweet fact may cheer us, that no good thing shall be withheld as long as God is with us.

Because God will enlarge the foundations of the land beneath, so that our feet will not slip, I will not fade away in complete solitude just like that. For God so loved the world….take all of me, let me run to your comforting embrace, won’t you?

Thank you for ur inordinate love.

For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to beholy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to beadopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will. -- Ephesians 1:4-5

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

hmm.julie, chuyia, karen celebrated my bday for me.. they bought these expensive cakes, delicious!

101005 tricia, me and janice at TCC, Millenia Walk

Sunday, October 09, 2005

wendy and i.. best ever.. beloved fren.. joanna, where are you? miss u badly, come back soon and join us for coffee at paragon!

09/10/05 mum and bro went church =)

Saturday, October 08, 2005


finale: the survival of the fittest

empowered girls in Christ

best buddy ever

settler's cafe2

settlers' cafe


jame's fav cake.. aha

praying to Father Lord

wacky wacky quite funny

07/10/2005 beloved cg

happy 23rd birthday! Best year ever, best birthday ever!

Friday, October 07, 2005

i am scampering..must be these.

I hope you're doing fine out there without me
Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you
And everything I had in this world
And all that Ill ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I can't take another day without you
Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
Ive been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I had in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When youre not here
Sorry I can't always find the words to say

Everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I had in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

Saturday, October 01, 2005




works more than text: im floundering in too much text.

God's word is the first and last of everything

Falling in love with Jesus is the best of all emotions.

That so often cauldron of emotions in us doesnt even need to boil when you fall totally in love with Jesus.
when it happens, you will find it very easy to say no to that emotional vertigo in your heart and stop staying riveted on your plight, anxieties and constrictions.
despite embroiled in the tenor of tensions recently, i was able with rock-solid confidence, to lean my proclivities right on Jesus, being unswayed by the raging turbulence, the tirades of unwarranted irritations, and in face of all these, i was not in an ornery mood, neither did i concede defeat.. and truly, that makes me a loved winner in life.

in recognition, there seems to be more negative words than positive ones in the lexicon, because we all live in a world of hollowness, fruitlessness and depravity.

simply, there is nothing else more pleasurable than to indulge in Jesus.