Wednesday, May 30, 2007

take a little ride with me.

7 habits of a Highly Effective Church

1. Saturate yourself with God’s words
2. Dedicate an offering each time you come before God
3. Participate passionately in worship

Part III

The misconceptions on worship is when people think that it is dependent on the worship team and that it is a good worship if one enjoys it. Conversely, worship depends on everyone and is for God to enjoy. Worship is never a special anointing; worship comes straight from the heart of a true believer. Worship too, has an outcome, God assesses the worship and for many of us, we should curb our evaluating attitude towards worship for comparisons generate pride and we should participate in worship instead of evaluating!

Worship requires

1) A heart of humility

“But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: "God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble." James 4:6
God looks at what is unseen.

2) A life of obedience

To obey is better than sacrifice, and this is reflected by our actions in daily living."But Samuel replied: "Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams." 1 Samuel 15:22

But these alone do not result in great worship.

In fact, though one may say that extravagant worship offered by the human lips and body is the icing on the cake, I believe it is more the cake than the icing. To reference great worship akin to a relationship with God is indeed valid. Because we have a God that is worth it. The redemption from God comes when He is able to reverse the use of our lips and bodies (the instruments of sin) into holy instruments of love expressions for Him. And great worship definitely needs to be transmitted from the human vessel to God. And that is what we are created for.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

a piece of sponge cake stuck

I have rushing my butt to finish the two drafts of my two papers due in early July. Judging from the progress, I think I am doing fine, except that it is headache to recall details of Tupada Xing: Social Contact ‘07. One of my papers will be a record of this event, a journal-style kind of. Nothing concrete is out here, so the gist of my writings has not arrived. But really thanks to those who have been corresponding with me in the emails.
Therefore, I am blogging to clear off some dirt in the mind before I hit my pen again. That‘s my problem. I am too unobservant. Every time I travel, I don’t seem to remember specific details of where I had gone to and the names of people. At the end, I returned from each trip with a feeling. Maybe I am just too in touch with the feel of things and often float in my own world, that explains the insensitivity to details. I wish I have Kaye or Rommel to sit beside me to help me with my writings!
Nonetheless, I am grateful to God for this season. At one point, I was driven to desperation and my soul was frustrated as I was out-of -job and things just became dusty with meaninglessness. But my two good tuition jobs have arrived and the session last night was satisfactory. Also, I am invited to Bucheon International Performance Art Festival (BIPAF) in Korea in early August.(let’s hope I can make it there, I would think Korea is gonna be another eye-opener to me) and on top of that I am also invited to 12th NIPAF Asia in Japan and TIPAF in Taiwan. God has really been good, but it is just unfortunate that I have to reject going to Taiwan and Japan as it is not the time to go. I hope I can go next year though. Somehow, I wish to be able to travel as much as possible to perform before I begin work in 2009. But of course, the financial part will be a huge burden if I cannot manage to get grants.
I miss my friends in the Philippines, I wonder when I will go there again. They thought of me when they were at the BEACH in Rommel’s hometown! David shared with me a song by Chris Rice in his album Smell the Colour 9, what I could pick up from the lyrics “Every day’s life is a bank account, everyone has 24 hours, no one is rich, no one is poor…. “ (life is what you make of that 24 hours)..I saw my insurance agent’s money statement yesterday; he earned a total of $285000 the whole of last year. I went back, so unattracted to it.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Thursday, May 17, 2007

dream a little dream

this is my best somebody, and his Gilera. it has been some months since somebody came. we have been through quite some memories. i still love somebody like the very first day i know i love him. being in love with somebody who is willing to give you a comfortable life is a happiness for every girl in the world. i am indeed blessed.
although his backache is sucking energy from him, i really appreciate how he makes time for me despite being so packed each day. busyness and fatigue often consume our souls. sometimes, we don't have the time to have a heart-to-heart conversation. the week just flies past unknowingly.
i hope it will not always be this way. one day, we must paint a picture together. we will head for the maldives, soon.

tricia's little farewell dinner

170507 her last day in Singapore before seeking a new
beginning in the fresh pastures of Tokyo. peter pang is a
typical American-Asian guy , definitely fun-loving and ever
excited about new gritties of life. hope life in Tokyo for him
will never be the same again with trish. God, bless their flight
and jobs, so that Your peace will reign in their hearts. look
forward today, life is exciting =)
That's seah and i..........keep the memories and
the friendship will be beautiful. to each his own
search for the love of one's heart, the joy of each
day, herein the rewards of life.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

15/05/07 that 's sabrina and i
(my new short fringe)

Sunday, May 13, 2007

dream alive

Last week was a true bumming week for me after the exams. But good in the sense I met up with my friends like anthony, alen, sri, edwin, yongqing and chuyia. Was emotional and frustrated with having no jobs yet at the moment. But managed to fulfill the things I had wanted to do like packing up my books and clothes and sending my printer and lappy for service. It is another week for me again. I have some plans but the bigger plan will soon come in. its like a dream I had in the week.. the jog of life left my legs aching. Distractions pour in and barricaded the laps. But still, I will go on. I am such a workaholic who cannot rest. Somebody is my blessing, we had a swim, we had so much fun and joy and we ended the week with a seoul garden feast. What lavishness in life am I enjoying. simply no reason to drown in tears, isn’t it ? money will come, as I give more. Worries must not take centrestage, God must come first in all. Love makes one happy, love fills one’s soul. I must face the tremors and rumors of an adulthood with more and more courage and patience so that I can win over the world for God. God must head, I must follow. And peace is what the heart craves. The rumbles of the tummy echoes the drumming of the head. To hear the priceless of what each man seeks. Keep the dream alive. May the golden pen tip of my pen draws the shades of freedom today.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

uncanny quiz results

I tried this link from sharon chan:

and the results r so uncanny. it has unfortunate or not, verbalised my real thoughts!

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

speak of perils

Entrapped in a system of rigid attitudes that limits my autonomy. This is a one-liner to sum my life as a university student. I hate exams not because they determine an A or a B. But the bare fact that exams in the Singapore context are so-called intellectual vomit for every student. The abrasiveness of it runs counter to my life’s mission of not pleasing humans to win the praises of man. Must I pander to your favoritism? As much as there is value in the content of knowledge, the act of regurgitation in the exams greatly diminishes this value. Who remembers the smell of candy floss after visiting the carnival? Can one ever articulate it? An afternoon coffee joke of ‘do you remember the lawyer in “To Kill a MockingBird?’ or was it ‘How to kill a Mockingbird?’ is a reminder that jerks our senses to reality. Why bother to put us to test of how much we have retained when we will not retain it after all? The university that unites everyone in diversity, (yes, a crude diversity in agendas, my lecturers just want their paycheck at the end of every month, and we just want our pretty grades on that ‘priceless’ piece of paper) is sheer mockery to everyone. I thought I was a fighter in this battle of life in Singapore, but today at 25 years old, I am much sucked into this reprehensible system. No weapons that I had thought I possess can bring me victory out of it. Emotionally, I wonder why I have distastefully allowed myself to be persuaded into such sensibilities.

Against life’s shifting and ambivalent setting that locates one in a precarious situation, I am finding ways to worm into the joys of life. Sometimes one must not get too caught up with performing to achieve something; life must assume the identity to ease social restrictions and promotes freedom of mind. A little rest, a little fantasy and pleasure. I must learn to inhabit these little ant holes so that the grand scheme of life will not consume me. Things must become secondary to lesser events, so that the lesser events will loom larger in the memory. If Colgate tastes different on the tongue after use, words must then color my memory of life.

Let me try this: Since Moll Flanders is the embodiment of financial deception and passive victim of circumstance, then she will not make friends with Lizzie and Laura who are weaklings consumed by the evils of commoditization. If Lily Briscoe attempts in every way to evolve from traditional prescribed gender roles with her feministic artistic vision, then she would think The Lady of Shalott is such an impoverished, destined-to-die artist.Of them all, if Moll fights against Lily, Moll will definitely win because she is not like Lily who had 'missed the best of life". Moll has both money, sex and marriage, thus is the most successful cheat artiste around!

I feel like I am travelling through the vestiges of time every moment. This is the contemplative me away from the hustle and bustle of the activity of the everyday.