Saturday, December 31, 2005

some thoughts to end this year 2005

King Kong.. the Eighth Wonder of the World

Im sure many are gonna slaughter me for what I am scribbling here. I watched for the first time this year or even these 23 years, 2 movies in a week! Chronicles of Narnia and King Kong. To be brutally honest, King Kong is so much a better movie than Narnia! At least for me.

I was some minutes late, but well, the story begins with this foolhardy filmmaker, Carl Denham, who is adamant to make it big with his films, despite jeers and rejections he has faced in his career. He carefully decided on his cast which includes the lead actress, Ann Darrow, who became the sacrficial object for King Kong and who turned out to be his love. As a matter of fact, the cast was bound to head for nothing but a tragic end, when they sailed off to remote Skull Island which caused them to be entrapped in a thick fog upon reaching. Skull Island is where King Kong resides and is surrounded by a huge wall to prevent him from ever leaving the island. Throughout the show, Carl is bastardised as he feeds his selfish passion for fame and recognition continually. He wants to capture the best shots which he encounters in Skull Island even at times of extreme danger and near death, refusing to let go of his camera. Hi soul was in his camera. In the end, he is left with anger and regrets when King Kong eventually died, which marks an end to his pursuit. In the many dangers they met in the Island, they have an indestructible hope and rugged perseverance which hinged on a man-made faith. The scenes are still very vivid in my mind right now, and I am impressed by director Peter Jackson's manipulation of the show. He has cleverly sculpted all the creatures in our childhood's wildest imaginations, absolutely bizarre. With his propensity for travelling back in time, where the audience is brought to a prehistoric age in Skull Island, a place that is never located on any map, a place of dinosaurs and ruins where King Kong reigns. In the background of chantings of the witch doctor, native warriors and aborigines kidnap Ann Darrow, the saddest looking woman on earth, yet a beauty (she is the only female in the show) to be used as a sacrifice. King Kong's human emotions was stirred by the entry of Ann into his life. And in the midst of this, Jack Driscoll, the scriptwriter for the film was in love with Ann, and went against all odds just to save Ann from the hands of King Kong. They finally departed Skull Island bringing King Kong back to New York City where Carl made use of him for an entertainment show to earn his big bucks. Little did he know that King Kong was to bring disaster and destruction to the city when King Kong was separated from Ann in New York. The show wound up at the top of the Empire State Building, where a fleet of World War I fighter planes attacked King Kong.

I am grieved by King Kong's death. Thoughts marathoned through my mind in this fast- paced show. I see a parallel between how the world misjudged King Kong and how the world mistreated God. King Kong meant no harm, he went all out to save and be with Ann, because of a love that is totally humanistic. Yet the world did'nt receive him with awe and respect, though he is reputed to be the eighth wonder of the world. They percieved him first as an entertainer to spice up their empty lives and then as a potent danger. As much as how many see God debilitating their lives because he testifies their iniquities. They did not receive him because they did not care to communicate with him, only Ann did. They were all out to destroy him to prove the superiority of mankind and technology just because he doesnt resemble a human form. The love between Ann and him is not that of a romantic one, in fact, I see it as that of a love between a father and a child. Wholly protective, genuinely unconditional. Pounding the heart, saying "Beautiful" at the view of the magnificent sunset was the only word between Ann and King Kong, yet so much emotions stirred and sealed in the meeting eyes of theirs. God will go all out to save the world just like how King Kong did to make sure Ann was safe from danger. God, being the king, stands tall in the heavens watching the world, just like King Kong mighty and undefeated at the top of the Empire State Building.

He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. John 1:11

I really love ths show.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

A diffident stare towards these days

I should be getting some sleep or doing some finetuning to my research project. But I am doing neither. I just came back from watching “Chronicles of Narnia”(the screenshots in Chronicles are beatifically awesome) with the YA people. Oh well, I really can’t wait for the new school term to commence. No matter how free-spirited I am, I am definitely not a party animal; I am drained by all these dinners and parties. I miss things that I really like to do. Perhaps it is good to be away from those busy cares, but I am just so blurred in the motion of restless activities. I have lost myself in this whirlwind, I suppose.

I delight in quiet moments having conversations with Him.

Or I would love to talk to a butterfly, like Wordsworth.

To a Butterfly
Written in the orchard, Town-end, Grasmere.

I'VE watched you now a full half-hour;
Self-poised upon that yellow flower
And, little Butterfly! indeed I know not if you sleep or feed.
How motionless!--not frozen seas
More motionless! and then
What joy awaits you, when the breeze Hath found you out among the trees,
And calls you forth again!

This plot of orchard-ground is ours;
My trees they are, my Sister's flowers;
Here rest your wings when they are weary;
Here lodge as in a sanctuary!
Come often to us, fear no wrong;
Sit near us on the bough!
We'll talk of sunshine and of song,
And summer days, when we were young;
Sweet childish days, that were as long
As twenty days are now.

261205 all of us

261205 chinhao, louis, ali, and i

261205 we realli had nothing much to do except taking pics!

261205 us again!

261205 girls power!!

261205 YA thanksgiving dinner

251205 zhaoqiang, me and louis

Monday, December 26, 2005

nat's aftertaste of christmas

I haven't written much these days. The christmas fever has finally ended, am I so glad. I have not felt so worn out before, I think a part of me has just died. Bitten by a bad cough and tired physique is not the best aftertaste of christmas for me.. it has been a bittersweet period for me. I jerked out of bed at 230pm today. Shocked! ! I even foolishly replied li kai's msg "Morning!..." I have no clue that it is already the afternoon. I have still the last lap to leap before 2005 arrives to a closure. I am left with the FYP proposal which is still collecting dust right in a corner of the room which I no longer feel close to.. and staff meetings .. and SBTYL exhibition..well, I have my fears. But i know I will not allow them to master my heart. Healing and restoration is what I desperately seek for now. I have been coughing for abt a week..But I know I am going to be better, so much better. When HE has broken all barriers just to show me his overwhelming grace, how can I remain silent and not declare his wonders to the world? This year's christmas is so different from the last. and I know for sure, this is the kind of christmas I should be celebrating, not denying the true meaning of christmas like the past 2 years. I was touched during worship yesterday, the reassurance of Him upon my soul ..telling me why I am set apart and how I should delight in it. When I fill my mind with the good news of His great joys, i can comprehend his love so much better. How perfect it is just to have Him alone.

sometimes when the heart is prone to wonder and thoughts of romantic, ideal love which seems secular at times, dreaming of him in the most bizarre fantasy-like manner, like the best drama script conjured in a dreamlike this surreality, i find myself staring into space.. but then i know, at moments like these, I desire for His words to flap in the wind.. so that i can catch them .. Jesus, i need you all the time! when im driving my life into a blizzard, when I am limping on life's path.. i know I am looking only for you alone. thank you so much for braving through those harsh weathers for me.

last night, you answered my prayer, i celebrated christmas with my family, including daddy. You know.. even if it is in the most secular manner, I am certain daddy, like mummy, is going to know YOU soon.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

hi my friends.have a merry christmas 2005, it has been a blessed year, praise God for it =)

Thursday, December 15, 2005

father's birthday 141205

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Your kingdom, your children

Of great thy King did you but have need of

Our love, our service
Our lives obedient from our unwavering hearts.
meek for the present, strong for the coming day,
In your love cut from all fears
an impenetrable shield protecting our souls.

Of great thy King did you but have need of

You are the sun, a perfect disc
In limpid small ponds like our lives.
virtuous rays of light, a composition of pure energy
Never ceasing in full devotion
nourishing our beings to surge skyward

Of great thy King did you but have need of

The reflection of sunbeam in our eyes for others to see
Us uniting in the beauteous image of truth.
empty skies full with your celestial glory
Evolving towards absolute liberty
brimful, wrapping the Earth in golden happiness

Of great thy King did you but have need of

Blood of Jesus filling our veins,
Wearing our beautiful identity our lives girdeth on;
going forth to conquer the ill and lost
Devastating the devil’s dominion over sins
with the victory you have won upon the cross

Of great thy King did you but have need of

Shrinking from our sleeping spirits
Flouting abysmal darkness which steals upon us.

crushed by unstable dreams, coarsely sobbing
Weaknesses dissolved into nothingness
fresh draughts of beauty bright every morning

Of great thy King did you but have need of

Give ear to the symphonies of heaven
The veil of love and righteousness.
perdurable in this friendship

Like thick curtains, viewless to our sight
but ever unchanging, a surrender to your throne

kids at citilink Artells workshop

cg outing 091205


Friday, December 09, 2005

Dear Lord,

It is my prayer today that you aid me with your divine hand of power as I lead worship on Saturday prayer meeting. Thank you for providing me the opportunity, and I ask and pray that you will come and fill me with the Holy Spirit and cast out all fears that I have within the soul. I seek to hear and acknowledge the purpose in life you have set for me and may I establish this purpose from today onwards. I desire not to be double-minded, scatter-brained and be a jack of all trades, master of none, allow me to spend time on things in life that will add to my purpose as I stay focused. You have given me gifts in life, and I know that they are from heaven, let me hang on to these gifts, strengthening them and edifying others from there. In the times that I am lost and having so much work up on my sleeves, provide me that willingness and inclination to seek you. Make me clearer and clearer of my life assignment daily for your kingdom, as I know that only when I am focused, success will come in this lifetime. Jesus is the most focused man in His ministry, and I desire to be just like him, created in His image. At times, when I have shut out heavens and blocked out your words and calling, I ask for your forgiveness, lovingkindness and mercy. I want to concentrate my vision in the purpose today to be daring to proclaim that my kingdom is not of this world. Focus will govern my decisions in life, and is the center of attention and I want my heart to be true to this promise I make to you, not to be sidetracked from the vision you has ordained for me. For your glory to shine out from me, may I be irrevocably transformed right now. I trust in you for all the necessities that can as you have marked me with prescient eye all the requirements of me. Indeed, your grace is sufficient for me. No pain, no glory, the pain of life will not distract me as I stand strong on your foundation of grace, love, and kindness. As my heart is sweetly assured in your words, I plead the promise, believe it and obtain its fulfillment, learning obedience from sufferings, the treasures of darkness.

"Let your eyes look straight ahead, And your eyelids look right before you.
Ponder the path of your feet, And let all your ways be established.
Do not turn to the right or the left; Remove your foot from evil. " Proverbs 4:25-27


cg outing 021205




Thursday, December 08, 2005

polka dotty me with yayoi's installation work at ARTsingapore

photo by urich lau

a day with God's effacious grace

Met joon kiat and wife, vivien, with warren, urich, roger for dinner at S11, cuppage.

So great to experience a dinner with Christian artists and sharing over dinner His words, first time I took my Bible out and discuss things from it =)

Wonderful is thy Lord.

My meditation for the day:

"I drew them with gentle cords, With bands of love, And I was to them as those who take the yoke from their neck. I stooped and fed them." Hosea 11:4

Tuesday, December 06, 2005






28th November 2005 Farewell to Bangkok

to singapore i return.

i found this pic weird, there are 3 signboards at the front of a restaurant.

on my way back

not to forget the volunteers


27th November 2005 Performance by Kosit Jantratip (Thailand)



27th November 2005 Performance by Kai Lam (Singapore)




27th November 2005 Performance by Jittima Pholsawake (Thailand)