Sunday, December 31, 2006
Life verse for the Year 2007:"For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men." Romans 14:17
life ought to be balanced upon a holy scale for a peace-loving me
~MORE of wisdom, patience and godliness in my relationship with somebody
~MORE of commitment and discipline in my service to cg and drama team
~MORE of dilligence and God's grace in my studies
~MORE of God's union and reconciliation in my family
~MORE of God's peace in my friendships and saved lives
~LESS of pride
~LESS of pleasures, selfish desires and ambitions
~LESS of insecurities, fears and anxieties
~LESS of illnesses and ailments
Friday, December 29, 2006
Just a few more days to 2007. I’m cracking my head, praying for a life-verse-of-the-year for 2007, as well as some concrete New Year resolutions to blow a kiss for the start of 2007. One word that keeps surfacing in the waterlogged brain is CLEANSING, that will mean purging egregious sins from the inside out. Picking your hill to die upon, will mean paying the spiritual price to keep connected with God for every decision of my life next year. Or else, it is going to be an expensive flop.
This was my verse for last year. "For I know that this will turn out for my deliverance through your prayer and the supply of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, according to my earnest expectation and hope that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by death."
This year I have tasted the sweetness of God’s measure of restrained garce and I hope it is the same for many of the people I love and care. Back to cleansing, I hope that God’s persuasive voice will rise again in my innermost spirit and that as I wear the helmet of salvation and shield of faith, I will be able to combat the enemy’s flaming missiles every time.
Something for today:
“The lamp of the LORD searches the spirit of a man; it searches out his inmost being.” Proverbs 20:27
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
What are protracted roads less travelled
Winding roads less preferred
Raining upon the heart
Marred by soil and sand
This time the road in winter
Leads to the path of gold
To each road darkened lights
To each road dreams and sunlight
Snowing upon the body
Thickened by valour and might
This time the road in winter
Leads to the path of gold
Forsaking what slurs behind
O, roads narrate journeys trodden on
O, roads wide and countless
Emptiness in nightmares
Happens before Christmas
This time the road in winter
Leads to the path of gold
For even this road, to me
Is a vista of hope and knowledge
Less vanity, more wisdom
No more probing
In this winter’s bitter cold
This time the road in winter
Leads to the path of gold
My name is ‘Wisdom born on the day of Christmas’
somebody wishes to spend the next birthday with me
no matter how busy one may be
God takes on the busyness and shields you perfectly
Christmas is coming
can you smell it?
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Friday, December 15, 2006
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Sunday, December 10, 2006
called sister bertha when i was at the salon today.too bad that i can't go to palembang this time. missing her as much as she misses me.
tomorrow, i will have a day to myself in meridian hotel.love jakarta sky.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Friday, December 08, 2006
1 Blessed is he who has regard for the weak; the LORD delivers him in times of trouble.
2 The LORD will protect him and preserve his life; he will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes.
3 The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness.
4 I said, "O LORD, have mercy on me; heal me, for I have sinned against you."
5 My enemies say of me in malice, "When will he die and his name perish?"
6 Whenever one comes to see me, he speaks falsely, while his heart gathers slander; then he goes out and spreads it abroad.
7 All my enemies whisper together against me; they imagine the worst for me, saying,
8 "A vile disease has beset him; he will never get up from the place where he lies."
9 Even my close friend, whom I trusted, he who shared my bread, has lifted up his heel against me.
10 But you, O LORD, have mercy on me; raise me up, that I may repay them.
11 I know that you are pleased with me, for my enemy does not triumph over me.
12 In my integrity you uphold me and set me in your presence forever.
13 Praise be to the LORD, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting. Amen and Amen.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
.. On the way to national gallery today, I thought about how much I love Indonesia. I still do. the people here have that indescribable genuinity that is unique to them alone. We have been spending time on the road in the traffic jams more than sleeping..my performance is tomorrow, this is my first performance out of Singapore.. gotta be good =)
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Somebody asked if I like to listen to music in random or to be in control
Somebody wanted to go to expo to get his stuff
Somebody could not make up his mind
Somebody said he bought part of it
Somebody asked if I prefer form over function, or function over form
Somebody has something to give me for this trip
.. silly somebody gave me an ipod nano, recorded his voice in the nano to keep me company in Jakarta.. I was touched to tears. The love and sincerity in his voice keeps ringing in my ears.
Jakarta is a busy town. Full of traffic jams, and we ‘lost’ an hour upon reaching. Met my student from YI and his dad Suhaimi at the airport. He happens to know Jeremy too. They worked in the museum before. We were on the same plane so he helped us get our way to the national gallery by getting us a mini bus for six of us. That trip took us 180000 rupiahs. We waited a long deal of time at the gallery cos everything was screwed up kind of. Poor atieq, she must be really overtaxed with so many things to do as the organizer for IPAE and too little help around. I presume it is going to get more chaotic when more artists streamed in. we finally reached stuart’s plc in kemang berat and settled down. The bad thing this trip is that I forgot to bring my name cards and my wire to transfer pics onto the laptop!! =( but I will try to ask if I can get from Julie.
Day turns very dark at 6pm and we were so lazy to go to the exhibition opening back at the national gallery after our oxtail soup dinner that was really pedas. Anyway, we went back to the gallery (each trip to and fro takes about 50000 rupiahs and 1 hour) and I hung around for a while until kenji san came to pick me up. We went for dinner at Marriott hotel, chatted and he drove me back at around 12 plus. I was dog tired and headed straight to bed. The next few days are going to be packed with talking to people, attending workshops and performing. I wonder when the next time I will be online is. I wonder how the cg is doing. How everyone is. Jakarta is a nice place afterall, to live in, it is like.. so near yet so far. I learnt from my conversations with julie and angie last night that I really need to watch my back in whatever I do... somebody has reached phuket. Im sure his journey is going to be
Sunday, December 03, 2006
finally reached the day we so planned for.we caught Flags of Our Fathers after pepper lunch at lido, got some time to shop for topman's shirts and joanna's present. met xinyi for dinner at this hongkong eating place at cineleisure. sounds like the usual hangout places on a sat? maybe for our students. we usually stay at home on sats.. but today it is all so different as we immerse in the overjammed orchard road and sparkling christmas glitters and lightings. the mind took off to a relaxed mode today, just to have somebody.
are heroes what we create because we need them?
is your hero at the cross of calvary?
Friday, December 01, 2006
--- I probably didn’t sleep much cos I expend 5hours on the phone with somebody, as the day draws nearer to my leaving on the 5th, how I wish I could prolong this time. How I wish I don’t have to miss.. don’t have to be away for 7 long days –
The next day after jumping out of bed, I realise that the philippino artists—jeho they all, had not contacted me, that left me kind of free cos I was too reluctant to start packing. Thank my dear God for the chance to be at Holland V again with my twss beloved colleagues. So there were 11 of us – yanping, yanfang, shuwen, sumarni, hwee cheng, kaiming, alvin, kok hian, imran, gilbert, and I. We had lunch at coffee club – some pasta, and head to settlers’ café for a thrilling time of fun and games. The usual Taboo we played and Charoodles I think. We had a time laughing our heads off in the discovery of how talented many of us are. “mary and lily are good friends”, that’s amusing. kok hian and gilbert are hilariously comical. I seriously think that I had spent my time really wisely and fruitful.I miss being part of the twss team, I miss everyone of them, I really don’t know when will be the next time we can be together in such a setting but perhaps, the rift between us will be wider as well..
Had a meeting in the night with the episode5 people. Julie’s finally back and she opened that little door in my heart by being around. I’m glad she likes the heart-shaped blink blink key chain I had gotten for her. It was so ‘her’ that I could not resist the temptation to get it for her. Next year is going to open up a whole new world for her. I hope I can continue to encourage her as a friend no matter how adverse and tense things maybe. I love you Julie. Finally can spend more time with you already by going to Jakarta. Have a safe flight tomorrow. See you again soon my gorgeous.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, "Let us go over to the other side." Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?"
He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!"
Remember what people used to say? In the world, few people make things happen, some people watch what happen, and most people wonder what happen. Remember how God wants a partnership with Adam in the Garden of Eden? That He instituted the Fall to test Man’s fidelity so that through reason, they could understand their disobedience? Faith is not about wishing for the moon, hoping for the rain, God wants us to step out in faith to be a victor and not a victim, the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. God wants us to be problem solvers. True faith comes from the ultimate security we have in our identity in God.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Haiz, one semester down, four more to go. I wonder how much my energy can carry me. I realised after today’s paper, my English is really getting worse than before. My pract crit skills suck. In the middle of my writings, I felt like I have never learnt English before, I don’t know how many ‘good’ I used, cannot think of better vocabulary to use. Me an eng lit teacher? Forget it, that is mighty lofty for me. I must learn to mug, the problem with me is I never know how to mug. I have been too easy on myself already, that’s why.. like I said, sacrifice paid, no regrets. Holidays are finally here, time to readjust and unwind and head for Jakarta to rest this worn-out soul. Time to peek at the world again and stop hiding in this murky, gloomy place that makes people crazily anxious. Time to getaway.
Pack my luggage and Fly fly flew..this pitiable nat ah ger working for inefficient people with no work ethics. come on, find happiness in a sacrifice.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
The church has always been a mystery in God's words, and God's intent is for us to discover this hidden secret through our relationship with Him. So what is so great about church? Why do one needs to go to the church? Is it like what others say, the church exists in thou heart?
1.The Church is the Foundation of the Truth
In Paul's words, "if I am delayed, you will know how people ought to conduct themselves in God's household, which is the church of the living God, the pillar and foundation of the truth." 1 Timothy 3: 15
In this postmodern age, people go what truth that is not absolute. Truth becomes relative and they forgotten that in the over-sung innovation, technology and out-of-norm work, foundation of truth is paramount to achieving all of these. People flew out of proportion with what truth is, no measure of right and wrong, no measure of good and bad. People live by the day without realising the influence of the church in their land, when it is the cornerstone of truth itself. And when their so-called foundations are shaken, their instincts are to look for solutions and not the truth.
2. The Church is the Solutions for our Problems
"...Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless." Ephesians 5:25
In our town, people will think that solutions for the ever-increasing cases of suicide, divorce and abuse cases point to more channels for educating the people and the urge for the government to execute more measures for her people. But such mantras are superficial and do not solve the crux of the problem. The church of Jesus Christ has been ordained to solve the problem of the hearts of the people, as people embrace and live by the truth.
3. The Church is for the Salvation for the Lost
"..on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it." Matthew 16:18
As children of Christ, we need to have a far higher view of what the church is about. That the church is meant to display His manifold wisdoms, it is a coummunity of sinners (imperfect people) gathered to work together in the respect of each one doing his role. The role of this one sinner -- the pastor, is to keep these sinners attentive to God.
Therefore, everyone can build the church by 4 ways:
"some part of the church will be in darkness in your absence, as every individual brings in a lamp of light by coming to church"
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal.Butstore up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal." Matthew 16:19-20
"From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." Ephesians 4:16
Go preach the good news and harvest for His name. In Paul's labour for the church, "Now I rejoice in what was suffered for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regard to Christ's afflictions, for the sake of his body, which is the church." Colossians 1: 24
Which area tugs at your heartstrings today? As God spoken into the depths of your inner being, and beckoning you into His inner sanctuary today? As I sit through the sermon today, I reflected that I have not been doing enough for this church I call my home. And I will...
Hasn't God taught us to give careful thoughts to our ways? Have you been too busy building your home and left the church in ruins before your eyes?Hasn't He said that He will be with you and do not fear? for fear is the most accursed of all base passions? (Read Haggai today for You are called to BUILD THE HOUSE OF THE LORD)
experience tells me
time also diminishes the passion of it
within the very flame of love
there lives a kind of wick or snuff
that extinguishes it
nothing stays always at the same level of goodness
it gathers like an inflammation
then dies of its own excess
a bottle of white wine
a club sandwich
snugged up the cushion seat
high up at Altivo
surveying the land of Singapore
a wet misty night
a wonderful somebody
praising the excellence of His name
no paintings of sorrow
an embrace of loving spirit
therein lies the cries of fate
Friday, November 17, 2006
PAPRIKA : In the near future, a revolutionary psychotherapy called PT is invented. Acting as a 'dream detective', it enters people's dreams and explores their unconscious thoughts through a device called DC Mini. Directed by Koh Satoshi, the man behind the cult anime Perfect Blue. Nov 21, 7:15pm
Nov 22, 9:15pm
The Cathay Orchard Cineplex
RENAISSANCE: Paris in 2054 is an Orwellian nation, cut off from the rest of the world, where everyone is watched and monitored. Casting a shadow over the city is the large company known as Avalon, which primarily exports eternal youth abd beauty.
Nov 16, 9:15pm
Nov 20, 9:15pm
The Cathay Orchard Cineplex
Animation nation website:
If you go to this website:
This is what you will find:
"Animation Nation tickets now on sale. "Paprika" & "Renaissance" tickets have hit Internet sales quota, but good seats are still available from the box office at Orchard Cineleisure. A gentle reminder that SFS Complimentary Coupons are NOT eligible to exchange for tickets at this Festival."
For those who are free, please go to catch these animation films that have hit town!
I wish I can go! I wish I can get the tickets! All the best to you out there!
Thursday, November 16, 2006
where is the fresh air?
Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law. -- Psalm 119:18
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Okay, it is oxymoronic to be a grumbling christian
you be the judge for now
i have been working hard for inefficient people
one thing to do when you are really busy with things you do not really enjoy
look like this (see above)
if you are thinking of buying a mascara
do not buy maybelline unstoppable
it is unstoppably bad (tried and tested)
if i can be doing otherwise
i will start to read "The Red Chamber" aka "Hong Lou Meng"
(that is a snowball's chance in hell, so maybe not)
sometimes you just get a little crappy
and i will remind you
to question my sanity
i dun need luck please
thanks for them anyway
grace is spelt
i met a little girl and boy one day
they were jogging
the little girl asked the little boy
"is your heart still beating?"
Monday, November 13, 2006
a good read: