It has been this long since I last felt a wrench in my heart. It was songs that moved me last night. heartfelt godly songs from my brothers, that of bleeding lyrics and desperate cries -- the irrepressible energy which could only be divine. I needed to be touched and comforted once again, for times had been of disappointment and humility when I have to put others before myself. The throwing away of the usual self-glorification to look at and look out for others. the self-importance that crowns me must go.
This is a lesson for the heart where tears become invisible, where speaking to God can be fearful, deliberated and too shy. But this is too, my cry in the darkest of nights. This loneliness, has bothered me. At any cost, I must give back my heart to God.
In my thoughts offered to God,
abandon became the key to unlock the locked floods of emotions:
For God, my heart will sing.
For God, my heart will pray.
For God, my heart will glorify.
Abandon is my devotion.
For God, my heart will praise.
For God, my heart will cry.
For God, my heart will magnify.
Abandon is my conviction.
Abandon oh abandon, abandon to surrender.
Abandon to my Lord Jesus
(to be contd)