Right on. A new year has begun. Something unusual has begun to stir in me, I feel myself more in love with my church. It has been some years as a person in Brighton but it is only of late that I consider it a very integral part of my life. Have my perspectives changed? Maybe. I think it makes sense, all of it, the history of Brighton, the life of it and the people in it. We are driven by eternity, or at least, really, the love for God.
As I take stock of 2009, a wheel of change has overtaken me. Big, small, mediocre. And recently, my past seems to be narrated to me once again. It is like a test of Satan to question me again if I have really done that mega clearance of my past.I did throw my old shoes away... It is STRANGE.
I find myself containing lesser feelings these days. Some feelings have become diluted and sadly, some relationships turned thinner. IS this what people call ‘maturity’? But I am not all mechanical.
I am not about to write some ‘mend my old ways’ resolutions here. But I want to say that the year must be framed in this manner:
“I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace.” Acts 20:24
I feel some raging emotions in me. But they rage like silent waves. They say, fear will immobilize you and lethargy will literally kill you.
So, I will erase them now.
I hope I can be invited to a nice welcome sight when I return to work next week.
Hello 2010, will you teach me more than I can ever ask for?