what happens when there are unexpected voids in your schedule for the day? update blog lor. for a moment, I thought I was going to abandon this bloggy altogether but hah, i have about 20 mins for it now. well, though this week started rotten with the screwed up timetable as a welcome-back-to-school gift from NIE, i am pleased that today, we managed somehow, to grab for ourselves a 3day week. yeah!
(i am so not happy in NIE........sigh.......)
was on the bus back jus and saw some JJC girls boarding, and momentarily, it flashed back the time when i was still a JC girl, leading a normal life, having a normal boyfriend, and in the race of academic pursuits. today, i am just too different, so different that i even find it hard to put these two girls to convince myself they are the same. i am not sure if i am enjoying this change in me but at least i know i have been honest at every stage of my growth as a young woman. these processes have been real. i am working my life out slowly, accepting that in this journey, hopes can be dashed, dreams can go aground. but i am ready for anything to be punched at me, even right into my nose.
been thinking much about some friendships of late...
soemtimes, i don't know if i have asked for it, or at the end of the day, it is just a matter of unlevelled expectations for each other. i am too weathered to try to trash things out. i have chosen to just conceal and bury these thoughts daily, till they form huge mounds in the underneath of my heart. i am not sure how much more i can handle...but i am going strong.
all we like sheep have gone astray,
how many stars are there stiched in the whole wide sky, i wonder.
3 comments:
Some parts of you are still the same...those recognisable feet...
I'm not so sure about the feet. But I do recognize the shoes. Hee.
But hey girl, don't try to weather through all your tribulations alone. God's there for a reason~!
The stars are uncountable, infinite, like the spirit.
Sometimes when I look up, that's what I always think. We're just at our caterpillar stage right now. And when we die, its not really death but sleep in a cocoon. And when it is time, we become the stars in the sky.
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